My Super HERO

My vivid memory before I stepped into this Year of Tiger, was told that I might meet hardship and lots of hindrances (some Chinese beliefs). Knowing well that I will have an awesome year just like the many promising years past and as the year coming to an end though the Year of Tiger has another month ahead, it has proven them wrong enough, hahaa! "My super Hero never fails!!"

The dread upon a whole new phase of life has turned out to be a beautiful one.

Doubt upon uncertainty is natural, and I have one major one as well. I questioned, waited for an answer, was a little discourage at times just to think about it sometimes, which can easily become a grouch hidden inside of me as I was so sure in the beginning. God always work miraculously. Once again, He surprised me with the way He brings the answer, perhaps I should say it's an assurance, just before the year ends. I can never thank Him enough.

Life is like a movie, we are the main character, He is the director with beautiful story plots all ready in mind, ready to roll anytime. Oh, I cant wait to play in the next scene.

Back in Sunday School

A day in Sunday School, after SO many years was simply awesome. The children in the toddlers' class are SO adorable, chubby and restless. I dont remember me being so restless when I was their age, but I must have been adorable too, hahaa! Anyway, the moment this little girl hold on tightly to my fingers during the worship without planning to let go of it, I couldnt stop liking her more. The children have such contagious smiles and laughter that will melt you on the spot.

The worship songs reminded me the songs I used to sing in Sunday School, also not to forget the actions accompanied. I like those simple songs directly expressing our feelings to God. Nice. The colouring session was fun too. Some coloured everything in one colour, some coloured tree in brown and blue and so on. Pretty creative bunch of painters. Oh, I like the way the teachers talk to them, very encouraging. I miss the little princesses and heroes already.

I still believe

I will still believe that He will bring sunshine after every storm and rain.

Simply because I know He never fails.

Comes with price

When things are free, I take it for granted

When I know that it comes with a price, I learn to appreciate, or at least I try

What about the greatest price He has paid for my life?

Have I been taking it seriously?

Step aside

Life is not just about us. Or us alone. Life is too short to have I and I alone. It is about what He wants to accomplish.

Do you know that it's really awesome to view the world through His lens? I'm not joking! It's true. Never thought I could encounter such beauties. I had so much joy last week, just one simple incident, the smiles and laughters lasted for so long.

Step aside, let Him take control and show you. Do I want more of those surprises? You bet!

You aint old, but cool!

Did I ever tell you that I enjoy the time I spend with people double my age, or triple?

If you happened to read this, and you are above 40, I have to say this to you

"You ain't old, but you are really cool!"

Sometimes, I prefer to spend quality time with them rather than people of my age. Let me tell you how cool they are. They have such beautiful and captivating stories, better than any movie or drama broadcast. Stories about them, about how they overcame obstacles in life, a series of events you and i might not even experienced or heard of.

If you happened to have this golden opportunity, dont let it slip away. Listen attentively, you will realise there's a message lies beneath every story they shared with you. It might help you to understand how certain thing in life works, or prepare you for the obstacle you are about to face, or prevent you from making a huge mistake in life that you will regret in future, or teach you to be wiser in making decisions.

There is a famous Chinese saying '我吃盐多过你吃米'

I'm blessed to know many extremely awesome and interesting cool people!

Marmee and Dardee, you two will always be the top on 'The-People-I-Love' list!

You two are always young at heart, in actions, in speech and in everything you do, that's the reason why your children stickily stuck to you, hahaa!

You two have much nastier ideas and creative ways to carry out things than we do.

You two know how to love, so much more than we do.

Love you, my cool marmee & dardee!

Grateful

Am grateful for all the opportunities given and blessed with choices to make

Though it may not seems to be the sweetest of all, for now

Yet I'm very sure no decision was made with a mistake

Every move we make is part of the journey to learn

A journey that mold us to be wiser in mixing the right colour to paint our dreams

Groan and sigh may be heard sometimes

Why waste the time to frown and make life miserable, every second will only move even slower

Laugh and sing along each part

Draw a smiley on the calender each day, share some lame jokes and make another person laugh

Have more tears of joy rather tears of misery

Because that's when you really had a laugh, good for health too

Dont wanna mess with your mascara? Then put on water-proof mascara, hahaa!

I still vividly remember the advice given before I migrated from my comfort pond to the sea

Be gentle with speech and actions, treat others as your own brothers & sisters, serve the Boss, do not give up easily (have perseverance), look at the bigger picture, always give thanks with the little we have & received, ...

Some verses my cell group has been sending to encourage one another, let me now pass it on.

A gentle answer turns away wrath; but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Trust in the Lord with all your hearts & lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall never permit the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want, I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:12-13

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:37

Do not quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools. Ecclesiastes 7:9

But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. 1 Timothy 6:6-7

I was once reminded to look at the bigger picture my big & mighty Boss has for me, I know I'm not building just a Ferrari, it is something even bigger, something more significant... I pray that all of us who are walking in this journey of faith will see the big picture in our lives, never give up, always be reminded that He will gives us strength and wisdom, and most of all, be the light and the salt of the world!

Be bold in every battle, dudes!

Beautiful January, Good February, Great March

January danced gracefully

February came and folded especially excellent

March is here, and it is a pleasing aroma!

God has been faithful and merciful. Blessed me with wonderful choices, happy days to laugh and most of all, ever loving and supportive family members and friends.

Complicated?

I have literary stared at this blank page for more than 10 minutes before I could gathered back my conscious to begin. I had to calm myself, rearrange my very complicated feelings and thoughts to begin this post.

I hope by the end of this long post, you will have a clearer picture of where my mind is for now.

It's very hard for me to describe my day, but I shall try...

I was walking to uni today to meet up my group members for the assignment discussion. As I walked out from my apartment, I started to tell my Father how much I love Him and thank Him for His abundant blessings. Then, when I came to a junction, suddenly I turned towards the road that leads to the main road instead of the short cut that I would normally take without much of my conscious. As I was taking my second step, I had second thought of turning back, but in the end I did not.

So, as I was reaching another junction, something caught my attention. I saw an Indian man had his bike stopped at the mouth of the junction where I was like around 10 steps away from him. He seems to be searching for something from the bucket of his bike or arranging something. I thought he might have just wanted to arrange and tie up his stuff before he continue his journey.

3 seconds later, 2 motorbikes flew out from that same junction. There were 2 guys on one rather slightly bigger in size bike in red, and another lone biker tailed. I knew something was not right, something really wrong was about to happen.

The red bike flew out from the junction and made a very fast and furious u-turn, then turned and stopped his bike facing the Indian man, while the other one stopped behind that man. The moment the red bike stopped, the guy from the back jumped down and ran towards the Indian man, so as the guy that tailed closely.

What I saw was that the Indian man very quickly took out his metal hex nut tightener (not sure what does that tool called) from his bucket, and started whacking that 2 guys when they approached him with ferocity.

I stood there, completely lost my conscious. At first, I thought it was a street fight coz I couldnt really see what was going on. A few seconds later, only did I realised it was a snatch theft.

I know there were only 2 things that I could do. One, help that man and risk my life, coz I was not sure whether the guys were holding any weapon like knife or something that can take my life away. Two, run and get help but it might be too late coz everything is happening so fast.

When I look at what I had on my hands, arghh... only 2 heavy library books! And my umbrella was in my bag. Super pathetic! How?????

The second I decided to throw the books on them, I saw the guy riding on the red bike who was waiting for his partner in crime actually looked at me with his really scary expression.

"Arghh... shooooottt! He saw me!!"

I thought he might ride towards me and make my life miserable. I retreated 2 steps back. Then suddenly, the fight was over. They flew away with their bikes.

I quickly ran towards to the Indian man and asked him whether he was alright. He was not hurt at all, thank God! Then, he showed me his palm was holding on to his gold pendant and his gold chain was still hanging on his neck, told me they were trying to snatch it just now. But they didnt manage to do so. He said his defence with his little tool here might be small, but it hurted them. He told me that he suspected the 3 of them has been tracking on him since a while ago.

The corner house residents closed their gates as they were freaked out as much as I did and looked from the other side of the gate. Later, 2 other motorcyclists turned into ths junction and showed concern and suggested him to report it to the police nearby.

Even when I continued my journey, I was still a little shaken by the incident. I came a conclusion whereby, IF I ever encounter another such incident again, I think I know what I should do.
One, if I have anything good enough to be a weapon with me and the situation allows me to help out, WHACK!
Two, if I cant help out, dont try to be a hero, coz I can still shout "POLICE!" to scare them off and take down the plate numbers.

Everything happened so fast, I felt so helpless and sorry for the man for I couldnt do anything when I was so near. However, I really do wanna thank God for keeping the man and everyone else safe during the incident. I know why I took the road that leads to the main road this afternoon, it was His plan. I could have been the target or even got hurt if I took other road. Really thank God!

When I reached uni, I told my friends, but I think the whole reading room heard me, sorry... I was too confused. I tried to tell them the incident, but my mind was running with a million thoughts and not able to arrange it all in sequence for one moment.

All the confusion and anxiety was over when I began working on the website with my friends. It was another session of website designing and checking time. The hours were torturing, but Jeannie was the one who suffered the most. We worked till less than an hour for me to travel to church just now. Seriously, every second that count. It has been a week of just work work work. Thank God, this is the very very last assignment for my degree, hahaa!

During Nancie's baptism in church just now, it reminded me mine. As we worshipped and prayed for her, I felt His presence there. Such wonderful moment to experience His love. I'm sure He will hold her close in His arms always, shower more blessing and love on her more and more each day. "I'm really happy for you, Nancie" =)

Also, thanks to Elie dai ga jie's camera, I get to snap snap away the whole night. At first, I was a bit confused of the function coz it's pretty canggih to me, hahaa! I know my dad has one many years ago, but I have never acquired the skill. Later on, I find it actually quite user friendly. And there goes, happily snapping away... I hope the photos turned out well =P

Yeap. End of my stories of the day.
I was confused, anxious, then busy and in the end cheered up! How complicated!

Need to catch some sleep now, tomorrow morning is my last presentation for my degree course. It's going to be another exciting day. I'm counting on You!

Good health

I have been in and out the hospitals for the past 2 years.
It's such a pity to observe a few things that happened, yet learnt some lessons.

Just thought of sharing what I realised through the conversation with my mom.

"We trade our health for wealth during our youth,
then trade our wealth for health when we are old."

How pathetic.

Just a little reminder here to all my friends: If you want to live and enjoy life to the fullest, do not neglect your health =)

Need to clarify my first statement:
I am perfectly well here, no worries. The reason why I said 'I have been in and out the hopitals' is that I went visitations of people that I know who admitted to the hospitals, not due to my health medical visitiation or what-so-ever. Sorry for giving the wrong idea there. =P My bad.

His Support

I'm feeling extremely happy
Praise God for His faithfulness
God is good, all the time

He knows my craving
He understands my deepest fear
He sees me through all the seasons

He knows that I might have the tendency to fall
Cause I'm not strong yet
Even though I try very hard each time

He holds me tight by giving me support and love
Like the banana holding both sides of the ice cream
in the Banana Split

How wonderful =)

Devotion

Have you done your devotion today?

The message preached by Pastor Dr Wayne Cordeiro on Encountering God's Tranforming Word Daily was really awesome! Thank God for the message!

A few things he mentioned was simply inspiring.
1. Learning other's mistake not only save a lot of our time for not repeating the same mistake, also to gain wisdom. You will never know till you experience it. Learning other's mistake could save up your 10 years time for committing it.

There's one book to look up to... where else? B-I-B-L-E!!! There are more than enough examples for us to learn and be prepared when the time is here!

Reading Bible doesnt use our time, instead SAVE us time!

2. Musicians practice their scales everyday.
If a musician did not practice for one day, during the performance/concert, he will know.
If he/she did not practice for 2 days, the conductor will know.
If he/she did not practice for 3 days, the world will know.

What about us as Christians? Are we practicing our 'scales' daily?

3. Develop our devotion time a habit. Do it at our best time. He deserves our best!

4. Now then, bring 5 things with you for devotion time.
Bible, pen, reading plan, journal and SOAP!
[Scripture, Observation, Application, Prayer]

HUNGRY for God's Words? Feed yourself!

New Year 2009

Happy New Year 2009!!

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Thank God for the wonderful retreat at Taman Pertanian on the 2nd day. It was awesome!

I dare not to have any expectation at all for the toilet, as were told it is a kinda 'ulu' area. And... it turned out to be it's-fine-without-the-glasses, haha...

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Love

the interesting sharings everyone contributed,

the brain-juice-squeezing plannings everyone participated,

the discussions everyone brought up,

the meaningful 'ungame' and the exciting 'hunter & bear' game,

the super duper tiring cycling moment up & down the hills,

the many makan-ing sessions with the flies,

the refreshing water bathing moments ,

and the 'zzz...' hours accompanied by the mosquitoes...

with all of you... =)

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Really appreciate all of you who were willing to come from far and near for the retreat!

Dear brothers and sisters, all of you means a lot to me.

Let's keep shining for Him and serve Him with all our might! It will be tough, but we are never and will never be alone in the battle!

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'Sharing Love, Impacting Lives'

Malaysian Literature assignment- Dream

We were given this as assignment:

Critical Essay on Fiction:

Throughout history dreams have been associated with sacred revelation and prophecy. Sigmund Freud believed that every dream is a wish fulfillment. However, dreams can often mean the opposite of what they seem to mean; that is, we often see our own desires as they are often reflected (and mirror-reversed) through others.

Do you agree that dreams in Malaysian fiction in English are a fulfillment of desires/wishes or rather a reverse of them? To prove your point, discuss the use of dreams in the stories and the novels covered this semester. Give appropriate examples from the texts. [20 marks]

The moment I finished reading this question, my face turned into--> o,0? Never in life would I ever dream of getting question such as this! Never!! I was amazed, to be honest. Surprise? Yes! "Surpply!!!" haha... Such interesting topic ^__^

Did some reading including those I should have done sometimes ago, opps*

Short stories: It's All In The Dream, Haunting The Tiger, Ibrahim Something, Journey...

Novels: Green Is The Colour ( =,= till the end) & The Return (still havent finish, opps*)

Sigmund Freud's dream analysis.

Dream is fulfillment of wishes. What do you think of this statement?

After all those readings and brain storming moments, I think to some extend I have to agree to it.

From what I understand so far, there are generally 2 types of fulfillment of wishes: wish for something to happen in real life & wish for certain thing/event to be avoided. There are wishes expressed through the conscious description provided by the dreamer, however most wishes are unconsciously represented, only dream interpretation can uncover the wish. There are 3 typical anxiety dreams: embarrassment dreams of nakedness, dreams of the death of a beloved one, dreams of failing an examination.

From what I have read and analysed, there are points he mentioned were quite related to my own personal life too. Of course, I dont mean to say I agreed on everything he stated there. Everyone has a different life and thinking.

Sometimes, the mind is so powerful that it can actually interpret the hidden meaning of the dreams we had, influence our life and actions. There was once when I was a child, I had a really bad dream about the death of someone that I'm very close with. Our relationship was kinda tense sometimes. We quarrelled a lot and we both shared the same strong character-cannot afford to lose in any aspect at all, in the other word we want to be only the winner, not the loser. Yet, I can assured that we really love and care for each other, no hatred.

The moment I woke up from the dream, I knew it was from God, He wants me to learn something from it. I woke up, sat there for a very long time, thinking about the dream I just had... 'Was it just a dream? But it seems so real. Never in my life had I felt that way.' To lose someone in life forever, the feeling is aweful. All I wanted to is say I'm sorry and give a BIG hug. From that day onward, I have learnt to try my best to tolerate and to be patient in many ways. I'm not saying I'm super good in tolerating and be patient, I'm not perfect, yet I did my best to break my old records.

All I wanted to conclude here is that, the dream I had changes my life. I guess it's a fulfillment of wish in some ways because deep down in my heart, I have always hoping not to lose this person in my life or let the hatred to tear us apart.

Treasure the people you love before they close their eyes forever!

*I cant believe I've started writing this post 10 days ago and completed only today!*

Lost a friend

A very tough week. So many things waited in line beeping, assignment, presentation, responsible... Assignment has finally come to an end. Still have one more presentation to go, but I am prepared.

An unexpected incident make it even tough to handle. It was on Tuesday, we received the news that Gideon passed away. It hurts a lot. Everyone was shocked with the very sudden news. A gloomy day for everyone who knows him.

I have lost family members and friends whom I'm close to. All of them needed health treatment before they went back to the Lord. I understand. However, this time was not the same.

Never in my life have I attended a funeral wake. Went there with some of the CF members on Wednesday. Some CF members from other campus and CG members were there also. Everyone was in grief. His family members were weeping in grief. Just so hard to accept the fact that he left us. The atmosphere was more than just sadness and heart breaking.

Though I'm not very close to him, but he is a very helpful person. He doesn't mind fetching people here and there. He would tell people frankly to what extend he can offer his help. He won't promise others things that he cannot do it. He was more introvert when I first knew him through CF last year. Ever since the new committee formed, he tried to make it to every week's fellowship and even make newcomers feel comfortable when they first step into CF.

He is back with the Lord now. A better place.

This incident actually triggered off what I've learnt during last year CF camp. I should start writing eulogy for my own funeral. Why? Those who went to the camp would understand perfectly why I said so. That would be my both short & long term goals. At the end of the day, I will leave this temporary world and this is a fact that cannot be changed. I want to be become the 'person' God would please with. The purpose of my life is to live it out for Him.

No one is perfect in this world. We try our best to improve ourselves and break the limit. Always encourage each other, not being a hypocrite.

Be sensitive with the people around us. Treasure them always. *HUGS*

Keep shining for Him while we are still here. Have joy in doing His job! Sing praises and be thankful, may it be happy or tough... We still praise Him!!!

Sharing time =)

Just wanna do some sharing this time. Something I learnt a few weeks ago. Yea, I know it was very long ago, yet I think it's very crucial.

There was once I heard from a pastor who said this:
'There was a night in an aeroplane, a lady cried for help. Her husband had a sudden heart attack in the middle of the sleep. Everyone in the plane woke up that moment. Very soon, a pilot made an announcement: "Is there any doctor in the aeroplane? We have an emergency here! We need help from a doctor!" This man was very fortunate because there were 4 doctors on the plane that time.

But what if all the doctors decided not wake up to help the man because they are simply too tired due to the late and long meeting they had the day before? What would happen to the man?

Very similiarly, if God ask us: "Is there any Christian here? There is an emergency! Someone is dying!"

Christian, are you ready to answer this call? Are you prepare to do it now? Or are you even ready?'
(This may not be the exact version because I didn't record it down, sorry. I just type out whatever I can remember...)


Immediately, I took a while to think seriously about what I have just heard.

Am I ready to say 'Yes' now if He calls? Or am I well prepared?
There were times I pondered how ready am I....
I always fear I'm not doing well enough for Him and I fear... a lot ...

"Lord, bless me boldness and wisdom to do your work... "

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom,
and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
Proverbs 9:10